This posting is from me, Eric, related to new experiences and reconsidering the ability to do readings. It is a bit rambling, but perhaps will show you some of the things that I have been considering lately as I stop ignoring things that are being shown to me – about me – from spirits that guide me and teach me.
If you pay attention to the dates of these postings, you can tell that the postings have slowed, but now I begin posting again. It is not that the communications with spirit have slowed by any means. It is just me that has slowed in posting. And while I am a good little sharer, I don’t share everything believe it or not.
In the beginning of Beyond Perspective – the Home Page, the About Page, etc. – I note that I am not so much about being a medium that does readings… It just did not seem to be my “thing” or my skill set as this started out.
This seems to be shifting, and has been shifting over the past weeks where I have not been posting with the frequency that I had been. What has been coming through to me during this time has been spirits signaling to me opportunities to begin the process of experiencing, experimenting and learning “how” it might work.
- Because I have felt confident that I do hear and see quite clearly now.
- And I have felt confident in my experiences and conversations with those in spirit.
- But, by and large, it has always been that THEY come to ME, and I recognize they are around, and we work together as they share something to me or through me.
It had always seemed so odd to me – or so hard to figure out (because I have to analyze everything of course) – how mediums that do readings can SCHEDULE this activity! First, how can they schedule according to a time slot on our side? With spirit dimensions, they do not work according to our time, so it seems/seemed odd to me. I do get that we put out “intent.” And I do have some level of understanding of how intent, shared consciousness, and the general ways in which spirits communicate could support something like scheduled readings. But I just had not experienced it for myself in order to really grasp the concept – and I’m all about experiencing something for myself in order to say I kinda get it.
I also was not sure how the process would feel or how it would happen. It would be like someone brand new that I had never met coming to my front door. And every time someone new was at the door, I would have to see them and hear them clear enough to translate to someone (who could not see/hear) what I was seeing and hearing and give them the signs, signals, and messages of validation of the spirit’s identity. Until this point in time, I have gotten to know spirits over repeated interactions, and just like in the incarnate dimensions we get to know people better over repeated interactions.
So doing a reading would be like trying to understand the unique nuances of the person at the door every time someone new shows up! So THIS is what is very new to my experiences, new to my process, and a new twist/spin that would have to be applied to my existing skill set.
So after a spirit new to me arrives at some specified appointment time and the identification activities/communications occur… after this point I feel much more experienced in translating the conversation. I have been doing this internally and through auto-writing for some time. (Of course I have room for improvement here too…)
Another segment – one that I am having to learn for myself and learn what skills to apply, learn the process – is when someone that I am doing the session for asks specific questions for the spirit to answer. Until now, the communications from spirit have been mainly one-way. I have, to date, been so focused on listening and experiencing and taking it all in and translating it to written word on occasion.
- What if the person in spirit does not want to answer the question?
- What if I don’t recognize the response as the answer? Because communications are not always words! They can be pictures, symbols, or even just a simple smile or gesture
In this event, being ethical and just giving what you see/experience is so important!
This has become very clear to me on some of the initial readings that I have been doing. When someone (incarnate) poses a question – it is so natural to want to provide a rich and deep answer. This is particularly true because I, as someone who can hear and perceive, often DO get very rich/deep answers. So naturally it is my desire to want the same thing for the sitter!
But you just can’t create it for the sitter if it didn’t come through. The rich/deep info I sometimes get comes to me through more established relationships with spirit. And it is completely impossible to put English words to EVERY nuance of the communication. Communications have so many attributes and nuances to them – so multi-layered. So I experience them very differently than what I can put words to when I convey the answers. So my natural desire to give the sitter the same rich experience of the answer is too much for me to expect – and this is something that I have to learn let go and let happen only as it does occur. Again, just conveying the answer, just conveying what you hear/see is important not only for metaphysical ethics in general but for doing readings.
The saving grace, I tell myself, is that since the sitter is many cases is NOT used to getting such rich levels of communication, they are NOT expecting it. I have to learn to be happy just giving more simplistic messages backward in answers to questions posed to spirit by the sitter.
The spirits seem to understand this. It seems to me they know the sitter and know me as the translator, and they seem to know how much to give us or how much we can handle. Also, they are focusing on the sitter and giving them what THEY need. My role is the conveyor of what I hear and see, not having to understand it all.
This was new to begin experiencing and to process.
My guidepost is that doing sessions (if it comes to be that this is something that I grow into more full time) must always be about the incarnate and their people in spirit reconnecting. And I am in the process of learning how to be a connector between the two and allow it to happen through me, on-the-fly, without having to always understand it.
I am still experimenting with what those in spirit are doing to guide and develop me. And I am experimenting with different avenues of my skill sets to see what applies, what does not apply, and what new twists I may need to learn.
And I am experimenting with sitters – known and unknown to me – that are open, willing, and strong enough to manage themselves in the event that I mess up or fail. Because my biggest fear is to fail and to impact someone in an adverse way.
As part of my own awakening, I have experienced being a sitter for some pretty amazing and very gifted mediums. So it is hard to not expect to perform at their level. Fear of failure and continued skill development are things that I am working on with those higher that guide me, guard me, and help me to develop.